Crossing Barriers

There are barriers in my life that need crossing. My fears, my anxieties, my worries. In truth, these barriers need to be destroyed. I imagine myself standing in the road with hundreds of barriers of varying degress of chaos and pointy things that look like they could kill me if I approached them the wrong way. on the other side of this insanity stands a girl. A girl that I am willing to risk life and heart for just to get to know her better.

"Dude, you're out of your mind. No girl is worth that much trouble." You see all these movies with the guy trying to get to this girl, but he has to go through these outrageous obstacles to get to her. Albeit, the majority of my obstacles are mentality-based, the idea is still the same. Why then, do people like those movies? I doubt they subconsciously find it appealing because they know no guy or girl is worth that amount of trouble. Nah, they find it appealing because it's nice to hear about that stuff. They wish it would happen to them. They wish someone loved them so much that he/she would go to the ends of the earth to get to them. It's a romance.

So why then, is it so weird for someone to actually do that? You do outrageous things for someone.. and they don't recognize any of it. Or maybe they do, but just think you're a little overeager. Just to clarify (ashley), I'm not applying that last bit to myself. But it does happen.

The barriers that I am crossing for Ashley might seem like nothing to someone else, but they are staggering to me. I've never done anything on my own. For real. I have never gone on a trip by myself, let alone planned one on my own. To travel across 6-7 states. To approach a congested terminal. To talk to people that could be abrasive. To do things I've never done before. And to see how much I will really end up liking the person I'm going to see. And to make the trip back. Well actually, theres a whole crapload more to it than that. Like I said. Hundreds of barriers. A lot of them looking potenitally catastrophic.

Wish me luck :)